i think i need the beach. just a quiet moment to clear thoughts, to calm down and perhaps to snap photos. a company would be good. anyone? sigh.



u know what?

i cant believe im doing math at this hour. if it were normal school day, it's absolutely normal for a JC student. but it's the hols. ((: and i solved it. im happie. i love maths. and what keeps me loving math is the feeling, the exhilarating feeling when u solve a question and even better if u realise the trick in it and not fall into it. however, since i stepped into JC, i havent had this feeling. the love for math was going down, dying out. but i think, i should believe, believe that i can do it, and make that feeling my goal. (:

and, i duno if u read my blog but...luqman, you're the best male friend i've ever met. (: as much as u used to irritate me sometimes in all 4years of TK, sitting nxt to u, i think, i'd never meet someone like u again. not to say u're perfect and all but...JC has led me to see the ugly faces of ppl, of boys. and by far, u're the onli one, i think who knows my feeling, who bothers to ask me how i feel. now, this is pure friendship feeling here(how are u getting along with ur gf? =p). thanks for asking. you may not know how much just that single question meant to me. but it made me feel that someone from the past cares. someone still remembers me. thanks. (:

u know what, it's ppl like him that makes me miss tk. i miss the feeling of having someone...u can confide to. well, not really everything but just..be able to talk to. all 4 years sitting nxt to each other. u can imagine the amount of stuff we shared.

[if u think i like him, u're wrong-.-]

i duno why i suddenly said all that. westlife songs brings back memories and feelings i guess.

every got that feeling when u talk to someone(it's a diff person nw) and ur heart churns and like twist abit or something, u feel like...weird. it's like what that song says: "knows just what to say so my whole day is ruined" but maybe not ruined just weird and all. hmm. i wonder why.

wonders if i shd go slp or cont with math. somehow i dun feel quite sleepy yet. oh right, i slpt 2hrs just nw. but being me, i can slp anytime anywhere. hmm...maybe it's becus of that weird feeling..

oyasumi nasai~



(: nobody tags anymore. i wonder if anyone still reads my blogs i think some do. so i'll just continue with it. thought of getting a new blog in tumblr and giving onli certain ppl my blog link but somehow u cant customize template there. so guess i shall stick with blogger. private blogs are not to my liking. (:

that day...i felt this sudden wave of terror. like im dam scared. scared of what? next year. i think. i was doing hols hw. then i realised-dammit, i duno how to do so many questions. how did i even sit for the Promos in the first place. no wonder i got that kinda results. then i looked back. it seems as thou i did understand what i studied but when it came to questions, i cant do it. argh. if this goes on, im so screwed. i feel like 1yr's not enuf for me to get prepared for As. esp since we gotta learn a whole new set of stuff. howz...:(

then the nxt moment, i realised, im going to taiwan nxt saturday! that's like a wk or so later only. and i haven pack. i duno whr to start from. and i got all excited.

then the nxt moment, i thought. that'd mean 9days of not being able to study. then i got down to doing hols hw.

up till nw, i've onli done bits and pieces here and there. and today, i only did like what, 2 maths questions...DAMN IT. i think i really need to go to the library. two days in a row i pack my bag and got ready then BOOM, heavy rain and thunderstorm, i cant go out. sigh, what's this, god's way of telling me, i can study at hm? or telling me, it's ok, cont to waste ur time. ARGH.

whatever it is, since i've gotta go hand in result slip b4 25th, i'll probably make at least 1 trip to the library b4 going overseas. i plan to finish all hol hw b4 leaving. is that gd? yes. (: anybody wanna accompany me?(:

there's chingay rehearsal tmr. SIGH. i hate dancing. ok fine, xcept mass dance that is. and...i duno, i just dun get that comfortable feeling with leo. some ppl there...ahh whatever. must remember:

Event+response=outcome

now the event is i've gotta go to chingay rehearsal. so the response can either be:
1)sian: outcome:dun enjoy
2)YES, im gonna learn something: outcome: maybe will enjoy

i opt for no.2 thou it's kinda tough. let's go yo. mayb will see the choir ppl in sch tmr. or actually, it's ok, better not to see me dancing salsa =.=

ja~



post no. 177 i've made so many posts already?? haha.

when sch ended(thou it havent officially closed), i thought-"i need this holiday for a good break man!" but i was wrong. seeing the results, this holiday is for mugging. ARGH. u know how hard it is to tell urself and make urself mug when it IS THE HOLIDAYS. bloody hell. im counting on one word-"believe" now. but it takes alot of will power to believe. sigh.

so i suppose this kbox outing might just be the last time i relax and what nots. cannot procrastinate anymore. i've gotta start tmr. =/

but there's so many movies i wanna watch!
cloudy, 2012, christmas carol, new moon, GOKUSEN. HAVE U HEARD?????THE JAPANESE DRAMA GOKUSEN IS COMING OUT IN THEATRES ON THE 19TH NOVEMBER!!!!!!!!!!

i must catch it. but who's willing to come with me...havent got many frens who watch jap dramas/are interested in it. anyone interested??? pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee. HEH.

oh wait, i just said that kbox MIGHT be the last. okok. tmr gotta mug. pls at least let me watch 1 movie this hols..:(

anyway, kbox was ok/fun. 4ppl onli but heck, we had fun. and we also found out that the fierce P is very scary. :X haha. chillax P. :)

and can i complain to town council. pls change the floor tiles just outside the kindergarten downstairs. it's freaking slippery. god knows how many times i've almost slipped on it and so has other neighbours. cant u see how scary it is for kids to walk there on a rainy day??? and it's a kindergarten, kids are bound to walk there. oh well, it has been there since i was born. what can i say..

OHOH this is to U XX. XD KBox has arashi's songs but no double S!!!!!!!!!! WOOTS. or at least i think so, looked thru the album but no double S. XD

im waiting for ur photos P! haha. =pp

in this mood, i cant get down to mugging. ARGH. HELP ME.

ja~